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Member's Testimony:

Barb's Story

Before receiving Christ I was an empty, depressed, and angry
woman. I disliked myself very much and sought the approval
of others. I felt I was a disappointment to all, especially God.

On the same day my mother-in-law was buried (she had died of cancer), I was told that I had cancer as well. A biopsy taken weeks earlier came back reporting that I had a malignant melanoma. More surgery was required and my leg was left scarred and it felt twisted.

My husband Larry was certain he would lose me also, and I felt fear about who would help raise our girls. They were 10, 8, and 5 at the time. I drew closer to God out of fear and prayed for ten more years so I could be there for the girls. God gave me a sign, and I felt the peace and comfort that I would be there for them. God has been so good, it’s going on 17 years. I have learned to trust Him and saw that He gives even more than we ask for at times.

Unfortunately, as time went on I once again became empty and angry again. More skin cancer was scarring my face and shoulders, and family problems added to my stress. I sank into a deep depression, and I no longer wanted to live. Someone asked the question, “If you are a Christian, how can you be so depressed?” I was both, and I didn’t understand.

A hunger for God’s word, a book about “desert times,” and counseling were beneficial and healing. On the Sunday after 9-11-2001 we found the “Church Worth Finding.” Peace and comfort came over me and I finally felt at home.
I wake now with confidence that I am a child of God and trust in Him and His promises.

I look into the mirror seeing someone that God knows and loves. Being obedient to my Lord is so freeing. Seeking God’s approval is all the pleasing I intend to do. If you see me slipping away please remind me to be still and know He is God. I thank you all for your fellowship, joy, and dedication to the Body of Christ.

- Barbara Grundler

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